Self-pity won’t help me overcome my frailties. As a matter of fact, I don’t think I am interested in discarding them. My gladness comes from knowing my flaws are part of me and they’d somehow define my personality. Understanding this does favour how I am to fine-tune them to my positive usage.
Authentic completeness begins from within — the inner man. His mind. Once his mind is organised and regulated, he has the capacity to live on with hope. In the past, I was reduced to worthlessness and my capacity to love, myself and others, was very low. But I discovered that discussing my weaknesses, openly, unsettles the ineffectualness.
Secrecy means occult: Obscurity, lifeless and dominating. We cover up our flaws because we are ashamed. We fear reactions from outside. Our thoughts are, what would people think?, Are my colleagues going to respect me if they discover me this way?, No one will care about me once they find out about my drinking addiction, no one will this, no one will that, et cetera.
Until you wait to see and discover other people’s imperfections, you will always have this inclination towards the false assumption that yours are the worst. However, the funniest aspect of this comes from knowing that people won’ share theirs with you. This means both of you — these folks and you — are surveying each other. None wants to open up for fear of being ridicule, or reproaches and self-guilt.
Therefore, you coming out in the limelight to acknowledge your true self and accept your frailties is a step to unbelievable achievement.
I like my life now. i learn to laugh a lot even when alone. I try as much as possible to avoid over reasoning in all situations. Most importantly, I have stopped living for tomorrow. I live for now. This is not to say I don’t want to see tomorrow but it has become much more better taking one step at a time. That prevents me from worrying about what’s going to happen to me next.
I feel complete each time I step out onto the new day. It all started when I develop an intimate friendship with myself. Loving myself, confessing aloud and accepting my imperfections free me, totally. It is part of the process of learning to be a wholehearted person. Once the mind is authentically complete, it reflects to the outer man, which is the physical. On the other hand, if the inner man is broken, there won’t be any genuine plerophoria as a divine entity.